Day 18: The person you wish you could be.

Dear the person I wish I could be,

I've thought about this one, and I guess there's a lot I could type here. How the person I want to be scares me. How I'm afraid I'll never get to be that person. That maybe it's impossible. Who the person I want to be is. How she treats other people. How she loves. What she believes. Who she lets in. What she achieves.

I could go in to all that, and tell you all exactly who I want to be, but I'm not really sure of it because it only really boils down to this: The person I want to be is happy.

That's it. That's all I want. I'm not sure yet in what form that will come. Marriage, writing, editing, working at a grocery store, being a great friend, I don't know. I don't care.

So. Person I want to be, instead of getting trapped in my flaws and hyperventilating about my failures, I will look forward to you. Because I know that in the end, I will be happy. No matter what.

Love,
Lauren.