Time takes time, you know?

I haven't written anything here in a long time, but I've been thinking about it. I just have a bunch of free, unrelated thoughts. So. Here's what I've been thinking:

Creative Writing has truly been an experience this semester. I've never written much before because I've never FORCED myself to write...and I've never really seen what I can do. And you know what? It's more than I expected. It's challenging and stressful and hard to push myself, but it's rewarding. I've grown in a lot of ways. I've discovered different parts of myself. I've put that out there and let it be critiqued, and I've gotten better because of it. And guess what else? I've discovered that I've got some good stuff goin. And I've learned to embrace those things. And to grow.

I love fall. But I love fall in Bloomington more. It's one of the most beautiful things I've ever seen, and I just can't help but walk around campus every day and think...I made the right choice. I never question it. More importantly, I'm constantly reminded that life is beautiful. And that's a beautiful thing.

Songs are so inextricably tied to emotions. They will always take you back to that time to which they're connected. Even if it doesn't make sense. For instance the song "Bubbly" by Colbie Caliat makes me want to throw up. And it's no offense to the song. Just a thought.

There are certain days that will always force me down an introspective tunnel, and today is a day for me. These days make me look back and ask "What was I doing at this time last year? What was my life like? What was I like?"
And here's the answer I've come up with this year:
I've changed a lot. I've woken up to a lot of things, and I've accepted things. I've learned to let things go. I've learned to love myself more. I've learned to care about other people more. I've learned a little more about life and reality, and I've gotten more mature. More responsible, more assertive, more independent. More stable.
I've grown up and changed and things have changed and I feel like I'm more on the road to who I want to be and that I've got a clearer idea of what that is.
And despite what is lost in that, it's a good thing, I think. It gets me one step closer to the question that is inextricably connected to the one before that I always ask right after, and one that I think defines the pinnacle moments in my life/reflection upon it:

"What will I be doing at this time next year? What will my life be like? What will I be like?"